Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Holiday Anxiety

I shouldn't be sitting at the computer. I should be in my bedroom trying to decide what to take down to Tasmania for the next couple of weeks. But I am a pretty polished procrastinator (don't you just love alliteration) and I know I still have oodles of time. And my decision-making skills become keener when they're under time constraints.

Part of my procrastination issue is that some of me is not really looking forward to this holiday. I know, I know - I'm odd! I prefer to use the term "special". Planning to enjoy myself is hard to do as is spending money in the pursuit of said enjoyment. I suffer from an enormous amount of guilt. I'm feeling guilty about leaving the boys - the two who are at home at the moment (Josh is in Thailand on his "congratulations to me - I graduated" holiday). Sam is 23 and Luke is 17 and both are more than capable of looking after themselves. And they have grandparents and aunts to lean on if need be. And we're only away for 12 days. But I'm finding relinquishing responsibility hard to do.

I'm also a little worried about spending so much alone-time with my husband. Now that really sounds crazy! We've been married 25 years on the 18th of January (which is part of the reason for the trip) but it's been ages since we've been ALONE on a holiday together. In fact I think the last time we did that was on our honeymoon almost 25 years ago.

I'm not worried about fighting. We're not fighters by any stretch of the imagination. I'm just a little worried we might bore each other into a comatose state. Iven's not much of a chatter and sometimes I get tired of doing all the hard work so I'm scared that our daily word count may be able to be tallied on our fingers.

I know I'm not alone in this. My breakfast friend, Jenny, has been married for almost 30 years and when she and her husband go out for breakfast (Jenny loves going out for breakfast) they take the paper. He reads and she does the puzzles. Like Iven and I, they still love each other but sometimes there's just not a lot to talk about.

I know I'm being a little silly and that I'll come home in a couple of weeks and will have had a lovely time. But I can't help the doubts that creep into my thoughts. We've planned some lovely activities - horse-riding at Cradle Mountain, bush walking in the national parks, visiting an orchard and picking our own fruit and, of course, the little run on Sunday.

Maybe I should just go pack my bag ...


  1. Pack your bag and have fun with your hubby! Away and relaxed it will be great!

  2. We used to wonder why other couples in restaurants would hardly speak to each other. Years have passed and we are not so talkative either.

  3. Someone who has a sense of responsibility, who is still married and is honest!

    Wow, ever thought of becoming a Samurai Char?

    I reckon you'll be suprised just how easy it will be to be together like this.

    Have a great trip and run well!

  4. have a blast.

    even after being married 12 years - I get what you mean. ;) just enjoy. :)

  5. Hubs and I have only been married 5 years and sometimes we're still at a loss for words during a dinner date.

    We email back and forth all day at work and often, there is just nothing left to say in the evening. ;)

    I hope you have a wonderful time!!!

  6. Ahh, the idea to have a 2 week vacation right now is simple bliss. Try to make the best of it given your reservations towards it, at least for the rest of us that are enduring some cold winter months :-)

  7. Get the bags pack, Chica, and relax, read tons of books and have a great time!!

    Did I ever tell you one of my girlfriends lives in Australia? She just bought a farm in Tasmania. I've known her for 25 years...someday I must come visit you both! :)


  8. You have a 2 week vacation! That's great! Your sons are capable of looking after themself.
    Have a great trip and enjoy your run!
    I look forward to reading your report about Tasmania :)

  9. oooooh, your trips sounds lovely!!! How fun. You guys won't know what to do with all the alone time...I know, scary. I'm so excited for you...Oh, what I wouldn't give for that right now. :) We actually got away to Thailand for 11 days last Christmas for my brother's wedding. We left the kids with my inlaws and it was wonderful...hard to leave such young kids but we had a great second trip to a country we LOVE! So fun to getaway...only bummer is that I was prego with our third so there was no brewed beer by the beach...bummer. how's that alliteration? Oh, and yes, nobody looks good with a hump...but I might. ;) we eat lots of cheese but hardly ever drink milk in our house. Hope I stay hump free...well, at least the deformity kind of hump.


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