I piked on my run this morning. I piked but I don't feel in the least guilty about it, which I normally would. I have two very good reasons for piking - I was really tired last night after my longest running week since I cut right back and I got very little sleep last night.
The reason I got so little sleep is because of my love-lorn son. Josh is struggling with his newly-single status. His sadness is almost tangible and when he's at home it pervades every room. It's really normal for him to be feeling this way but when it's your baby that's so sad you just want to make it better. He's usually the sort of kid/man who's a ball of energy - a little irritating and a little loud at times. At the moment he's like a deflated balloon. There's no energy and even when he smiles or laughs he's just going through the motions.
Last night he couldn't sleep so at 1 am he decided to take himself off for a bike ride. I was woken by the door shutting and once I was awake I couldn't go back to sleep. I spent the next three hours sitting up pretending to read but really just worrying sick about him. Funny how everything seems so much worse at night. I finally got back to sleep and when I woke he was back home asleep in his bed.
There's going to be some very long days and nights ahead for both of us I think. It's a pity there's not a pill you can take to mend a broken heart.
Sorry to hear your son is so sad. At least he is lucky to have you to support him. Hope he can move on soon.
ReplyDeleteWhen your kids hurt you also hurt so much as the parent. Good luck to both of you.
ReplyDeleteHow sad. :( I hope he's feeling back to himself soon.
ReplyDeleteAh, poor guy, and poor mom! I have a ways to go before my kids hit that stage, but I can imagine how tough it must be. I hope he is feeling better asap!
ReplyDeleteIt's so great that you are so understanding of his feelings. I am sure your heart breaks for him. I hope he is feeling more himself soon.
ReplyDeleteThat's tough! Been there, done that, may be done by that again. The book, "How to Survive the Loss of a Love," is very good. Simple, helpful, written by an MD, a psychologist, and, a poet.
ReplyDeleteYou look like a runner!
Your PB times are nice.